I feel like I’m falling, on the verge of letting go.
Giving up isn’t an option, in my brain that’s what I know.
But as I hear my loved ones argue, and raise their voices above my head.
I just want it all to end, for my home to be quiet instead.
I don’t want to leave them, and I couldn’t if I tried.
My circumstances are all wrong, I am so very tired.
But hearing of this conflict, and being in this space.
Makes my stress levels rise, while wishing for my own place.
A quiet and peaceful haven, where I don’t have to worry any more.
Somewhere I can be safe in the knowledge, that my loved ones fight no more.
But I can’t leave, it just won’t work.
Can’t support myself on my own.
So here I stay, stuck in the middle.
Of a war inside my home.
NB – Ironically when I plugged my ears into Spotify to drown out my surroundings tonight, the first song that randomly played was ‘Stronger – What Doesn’t Kill You’ by Kelly Clarkson. This was swiftly followed by ‘Radioactive’ by Imagine Dragons, the lyrics of which also hold a lot of meaning for me.
I think someone is trying to send me a message…